Hi blog =_="

I'm sorry I always find you if I find something troubling me.
A lot have been going on... it hurts, some stuffs which are big, I tend to make it small, that's why I don't see why I need to blog often.

You know what's a love triangle?
Yeah.. it sucks!

You have 3, 2 of which you know will have a future with you.
The other one is just.. not ideal.

Then what's so hard then?
One of them kept sticking with me. (K)
Another one is overseas. (A)
Another one is.. I don't know. (R)

R is mad cos I met K.
Oh, wanted to met Rezza (K's cousin) but K came along. Thanks eh. We talked a lot.
Cannot stand it. And he is unhappy when I said I will eventually become the "sole bread winner" if I marry him, I'm not predicting because I wanan embarass him. I say it because it's reality. It's realistic. You know your own background, your education and your financial status. I don't want because of you, it affects my everything. I want an enjoyable future ahead for myself and my future family.

A or B (whichever you prefer) is gone. Literally gone, I mean, he IS in KL. SO yeah, did send him a fucking expensive SMS last night of which I never got a reply, which is kindaa...disapponting actually. I miss B, hell loads. I love B because, he is the most ideal one out of the 3. He has all of what I want. Education, money, looks and of course love. I know time is not on your side. It's not on mine either. Hope it's something, I'm willing to wait. I have patience. I know your something, you even told me you want to continue studying to Poly and Uni. I'll support B because I can. You also said you wanted to bring me to KL and you would re-new my passport for me. That's so sweet of you. I'll wait. Your my priority. Just that, this distant relationship is not working very well. I'll wait for your arrival. You know I'd do anything to talk to you baby. Love love love Amirul! (L)

R on the other hand is mad at me... because I met K. or K's cousin to be exact. Well, I did have a purpose of meeting K&cousin. Talked things out and what not. I didn't meet them for no reason. You know I never rejected your call, you know I won't. I'm sorry, I really didn't have a chance to get a hold of my phone. Thanks eh K! Thanks a lot. Because of you, R is mad at me. Imagine if K didn't exist, do you think I would be in this fucking big mess of mine? NO RIGHT?!?! Jeesh. Sway or what. I don't know la eh.

*Update: Cos R said he's sick of me and he's going out and I should not reply his msg. I did try calling him but he didn't answer. So yeah. Sucks.

MAKES ME THINK BACK..

Then why not I trash both and just go with B.
GOOD IDEA!

Stupid girl.
Then you wouldn't have problems.
Then you can have less worries.
Next month, I will have loads of money and I will be happy.
I will meet B and we can live happily ever after.

Not so bad eh.

Thanks blog.
This feels so much like a Reflection Journal AKA RJ.
It's like "What did you do today that you have learnt from it?" Lmao, FA's question.
I've learn to be patient and be loyal to one.
It's okay to have dreams, it can be a reality.

I'm out.

Bye! (;

12:52 AM| back to top

Hi blog =_="

I'm sorry I always find you if I find something troubling me.
A lot have been going on... it hurts, some stuffs which are big, I tend to make it small, that's why I don't see why I need to blog often.

You know what's a love triangle?
Yeah.. it sucks!

You have 3, 2 of which you know will have a future with you.
The other one is just.. not ideal.

Then what's so hard then?
One of them kept sticking with me. (K)
Another one is overseas. (A)
Another one is.. I don't know. (R)

R is mad cos I met K.
Oh, wanted to met Rezza (K's cousin) but K came along. Thanks eh. We talked a lot.
Cannot stand it. And he is unhappy when I said I will eventually become the "sole bread winner" if I marry him, I'm not predicting because I wanan embarass him. I say it because it's reality. It's realistic. You know your own background, your education and your financial status. I don't want because of you, it affects my everything. I want an enjoyable future ahead for myself and my future family.

A or B (whichever you prefer) is gone. Literally gone, I mean, he IS in KL. SO yeah, did send him a fucking expensive SMS last night of which I never got a reply, which is kindaa...disapponting actually. I miss B, hell loads. I love B because, he is the most ideal one out of the 3. He has all of what I want. Education, money, looks and of course love. I know time is not on your side. It's not on mine either. Hope it's something, I'm willing to wait. I have patience. I know your something, you even told me you want to continue studying to Poly and Uni. I'll support B because I can. You also said you wanted to bring me to KL and you would re-new my passport for me. That's so sweet of you. I'll wait. Your my priority. Just that, this distant relationship is not working very well. I'll wait for your arrival. You know I'd do anything to talk to you baby. Love love love Amirul! (L)

R on the other hand is mad at me... because I met K. or K's cousin to be exact. Well, I did have a purpose of meeting K&cousin. Talked things out and what not. I didn't meet them for no reason. You know I never rejected your call, you know I won't. I'm sorry, I really didn't have a chance to get a hold of my phone. Thanks eh K! Thanks a lot. Because of you, R is mad at me. Imagine if K didn't exist, do you think I would be in this fucking big mess of mine? NO RIGHT?!?! Jeesh. Sway or what. I don't know la eh.

*Update: Cos R said he's sick of me and he's going out and I should not reply his msg. I did try calling him but he didn't answer. So yeah. Sucks.

MAKES ME THINK BACK..

Then why not I trash both and just go with B.
GOOD IDEA!

Stupid girl.
Then you wouldn't have problems.
Then you can have less worries.
Next month, I will have loads of money and I will be happy.
I will meet B and we can live happily ever after.

Not so bad eh.

Thanks blog.
This feels so much like a Reflection Journal AKA RJ.
It's like "What did you do today that you have learnt from it?" Lmao, FA's question.
I've learn to be patient and be loyal to one.
It's okay to have dreams, it can be a reality.

I'm out.

Bye! (;

12:52 AM| back to top

Hi blog =_="

I'm sorry I always find you if I find something troubling me.
A lot have been going on... it hurts, some stuffs which are big, I tend to make it small, that's why I don't see why I need to blog often.

You know what's a love triangle?
Yeah.. it sucks!

You have 3, 2 of which you know will have a future with you.
The other one is just.. not ideal.

Then what's so hard then?
One of them kept sticking with me. (K)
Another one is overseas. (A)
Another one is.. I don't know. (R)

R is mad cos I met K.
Oh, wanted to met Rezza (K's cousin) but K came along. Thanks eh. We talked a lot.
Cannot stand it. And he is unhappy when I said I will eventually become the "sole bread winner" if I marry him, I'm not predicting because I wanan embarass him. I say it because it's reality. It's realistic. You know your own background, your education and your financial status. I don't want because of you, it affects my everything. I want an enjoyable future ahead for myself and my future family.

A or B (whichever you prefer) is gone. Literally gone, I mean, he IS in KL. SO yeah, did send him a fucking expensive SMS last night of which I never got a reply, which is kindaa...disapponting actually. I miss B, hell loads. I love B because, he is the most ideal one out of the 3. He has all of what I want. Education, money, looks and of course love. I know time is not on your side. It's not on mine either. Hope it's something, I'm willing to wait. I have patience. I know your something, you even told me you want to continue studying to Poly and Uni. I'll support B because I can. You also said you wanted to bring me to KL and you would re-new my passport for me. That's so sweet of you. I'll wait. Your my priority. Just that, this distant relationship is not working very well. I'll wait for your arrival. You know I'd do anything to talk to you baby. Love love love Amirul! (L)

R on the other hand is mad at me... because I met K. or K's cousin to be exact. Well, I did have a purpose of meeting K&cousin. Talked things out and what not. I didn't meet them for no reason. You know I never rejected your call, you know I won't. I'm sorry, I really didn't have a chance to get a hold of my phone. Thanks eh K! Thanks a lot. Because of you, R is mad at me. Imagine if K didn't exist, do you think I would be in this fucking big mess of mine? NO RIGHT?!?! Jeesh. Sway or what. I don't know la eh.

*Update: Cos R said he's sick of me and he's going out and I should not reply his msg. I did try calling him but he didn't answer. So yeah. Sucks.

MAKES ME THINK BACK..

Then why not I trash both and just go with B.
GOOD IDEA!

Stupid girl.
Then you wouldn't have problems.
Then you can have less worries.
Next month, I will have loads of money and I will be happy.
I will meet B and we can live happily ever after.

Not so bad eh.

Thanks blog.
This feels so much like a Reflection Journal AKA RJ.
It's like "What did you do today that you have learnt from it?" Lmao, FA's question.
I've learn to be patient and be loyal to one.
It's okay to have dreams, it can be a reality.

I'm out.

Bye! (;

12:52 AM| back to top