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Sunday, February 22, 2009
HELLO.
I'm assuming whoever made this emoticon is Malay or probably someone who knows how to speak one. Cos Emoticons have names and it's all in malay. For example, (you can hover and see) Topi Men Women Tanduk HAhAhAHA. Kay, nothing much. I don't have much mood really. Have been super emotional lately. I've been having negative thoughts in my head about everything. Boyfriend and how me and my $ are being used. I feel hurt. Cos I know if I own a rich boyfriend, I wouldn't be in this state. I'm wondering too, like Ira, when are guys ever gonna EARN something and be responsible for their own actions? I'm not trying to insult my boyfriend. I'm just saying, generally. Sometimes, I just wish I'm all alone. No one to look after. Sometimes, I even feed my own boyfriend. *sigh* Isn't the man to feed his wife and not the other way round? I know, he doesn't lead an easy life. I don't either. Still, can't you do something to earn some $? I know your schooling. I am too, soon. At least, I know I am. And my hard earned money going all to you. Feed you and sometimes even I have to pay your transportation home. Isn't that unfair? Probably, I'm just assuming that your just thinking I'm always with Cash and you have nothing worry about. And some cash isn't mine. They are my parents. It's for me. It's like everytime I feed you its like.. I'm giving you a treat. I can't possibly eat and just let you look. I would feel guilty. Guilt revolves around me when your cashless. Tell me, how can I not be crazy. The Economy's not getting any better. I'm not getting any richer. And you still got the cheek to tell me you have the urge to spend money. And at last you didn't get anything cos nothing caught your eye. See, you have money to splurge on useless stuffs but on food and transportation, you have none. This is what I don't get. Unlike me, I'll always Topup my ezlink and eat. My "wants" can certainly wait. Reason why I am going mentally unstable everytime I think about it. I cried yesterday thinking why I'm soo miserable with my boyfriend. Why, is the opposite happening? The guy supports the girl not the other way round. If I'm feeding you now. What about the future? Am I going to feed my children as well? I hope not. I WANT ALL THIS TO STOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *SIGH SIGH* Stop. Forget it. In the world, the only person who probably understands me is Azmir. I'm super fortunate and blessed. I couldn't ask for anyone else other than him. Thank for being there for me today. You always make my day better. Your always there, when I'm in need. Thanks a million. Appreciate it a lot. I love you. <3 I'm gone. Till I feel better. I'll blog again. Ciaozx. P/S. Wth is sufi? ): |